I’m up at 3am riddled with anxiety because my head is clouded with illogical thoughts. I feel like I’ll never be enough for what I’m supposed to be doing. And when people tell me otherwise, I look back into my harsh mirror of reality convinced that others must be looking at me with a colored lens.
I don’t have it figured out. I’m no different than you when it comes to battling discouragement. I can write about faith all day, but when something requires it, I have my own set of doubts. Much like Moses who questioned God about his calling, I’m aware of my own weaknesses. So, when preparing to do God’s work, I’m almost expecting to fail and wonder why God picked me to be where I am.
Where is the root of this issue? Am I doubting my faith, or is this spiritual warfare? Is my faith too small, or do I believe faith can be enough when it’s as small as a mustard seed? Am I choosing to listen to the discouragement from the enemy instead of the abound love from Christ?
These are the questions I’m asking myself. Maybe I’m the only one in this boat, but if I’m not, I want to encourage you that God knows all of our flaws. He chose us to do His work in the roles we are in because of those flaws. We are only made complete in Him. And when we fall short, that is the opportunity to see grace. When we aren’t enough, we see that God is.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9
“Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.” -2 Corinthians 3:4-5
“God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.” -Hebrews 11:40